One of those nights...

    Well. Here I am again. It's 3am and I've been awake since 2. Bummer. Scotty just fell asleep and at least I slept for 3 hrs but he, bless him, is just now going to bed. We mine as well have children because we are up anyway and I would rather be taking care of something precious than lying on the couch thinking of things I need to do, or shouldn't have done or whatever...oh well. C'est la vie as the French would say.
I have been reading several books by Francine Rivers. My friend Kim had told be about some of the books she has written on women in the bible and how she puts her own perspective on how she felt these women in bible felt during their journey. One of my favorite stories in the bible is the story of Ruth and Boaz. Francine Rivers wrote a book called, "Unshaken" about the journey of Ruth and Naomi and im telling you this book just sucked me right in. I used to read this story often in my single days (I know this is going to sound super cheesy) and it gave me both a sense of encouragement and hope that as long as I was in obedience to the Lord's calling in my life, the right man would come along. And happily I say, he did. :) but now that I am married I look at this story in an entirely different way. F. Rivers had such a way of expressing how Ruth sacrificed everything for the love of her husband and how she truly grasped the meaning of being his "helpmate." If Scotty were reading this, I'm sure he would crack up because "home ec" is not something that I thrive in. Like many of us out there, I tend to be more interested in conquering, well, you know the business of the outside world. I have no shame in admitting if we could afford it, I would have someone come and deep clean my tiny apartment once a month (or so) Isn't that just so vain? Doesn't bother me in the least to admit it. Personally, while working at The Inn, we do all of it and for the past 8 yrs I have scrubbed more toilets than you can count, cooked as many meals as any other person out there, so bravo for me....right? So why the heck would I want to do that when I get home? Oh,Nikki...what lessons there are for you to learn, still. I'm trying to grasp, in little bits and pieces, the true meaning of being my husband's help mate. Scotty rarely asks for a home cooked meal, after a long day at work, he doesn't come in and demand a clean home, I know he understands...but, isn't there such an overwhelming since of joy that I can provide that "haven" for my husband? Ruth did just that for Boaz. I am finding that it is not that we women can't have our own desires and dreams...it is just as important to the Lord as anything. But there are moments and seasons in life that we may have to drop a thing or two or more to be our husband's help mate. I used to and actually still do (again something I'm still trying to grasp a hold of) get a little uptight when Scotty would call and ask me to come sit with him while he is "creating" something or whatever. And I'd go and sit with him (which I love by the way) there would be times I would be thinking well, I know it would please him if he could walk into a clean home tonight after work, or I could go to the grocery store and cook him a meal, but what I'm finding out is he would rather me just be sitting in a room with him talking and enjoying each others company than me worrying about all that other stuff. And frankly...I enjoy that much more too! Haha! But being in a room together, even if I'm not accomplishing anything else, I'm with my husband and we are together in it. I think that is the key...we are TOGETHER in it. It is hard in this crazy world today to grasp the meaning of being "together."
   We live in such a day and age where it is all about pleasing ourselves and what makes "me" happy. We get so caught up in the "me" in life...what we don't realize it begins ruining our relationships. This goes for married or single ppl. It is hard work keeping a good relationship going. God never said that any good relationship is easy...it takes work. I want to work at my relationship with my husband because he us worth every bit of it!
   Wowzers....I don't know if I'm making sense because I know I have a long way to go in figuring this out. But my heart's desire is that I'm aware of it. And even when I act like a spoiled brat, (I do have my moments) I buck up a little and remember that one of the greatest joys in marriage is that we, as women, have the wonderful opportunity of being our husband's helpmate. I truly feel that is a glorious call!

Scriptures...

Ephesians 3:20-21 "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen."

Ephesians 4:1-6 "As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. There is one body and one Spirit, just as you were called to one hope when you were called; one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all."

It has been way too long!

Hello out there! It's me. Finally decided to write a blog. I've been up since 4am, my brain in spinning like crazy, so I decided to crawl out of bed, read some scriptures, and now post something. Life is good...just kind of the same ol' things, but those same ol things, I truly love! We are in the midst of rehearsals for the Happy Birthday Dr. Seuss show opening next week. It is such a fun show! I love it! We had Sound of Music auditions last weekend and Scotty will be posting the cast list tomorrow. I wait in anticipation just like everyone else, so waiting a week to find out what part you've been cast in is well, how do I say it....TORCHER! Haha! I'm selling ads for the Overlook playbills. It is interesting times we live in. I love being out and about in the community asking ppl to support what we do. The economy, no doubt, plays a big role in times like these, but it still amazes me how supportive our little town is, so I'm very grateful for that! The Inn is the corporate sponsor for The Sound Of Music in April and I'm super excited about this. Several ppl who are close with our ministry went over and beyond to make this possible and I'll be forever grateful! We have been trying to let our area know more about The Inn and what we do. We are an "international" ministry, so ppl from all around the world come, but ppl in our home town don't know exactly what we do. I feel this will be a great way to let ppl know in this area who we are and what we do and I am super excited to see what the Lord has in store!
  My brother Chan is getting married in 2 weeks and I'm crazy excited about the wedding and everyone being together! They will be married in Charleston, so it will be a beautiful time all around!
  Let see...what else? It seems like every day is full and I'm grateful for that. Last night after rehearsals I had so much energy I felt I was going to bust out of my skin! So, Camila was kind enough to go walking with me on the track. Ever since this past Fall when I had walking pneumonia three times, it has taken awhile for my energy to come back. I've had really good days and days where I felt I'm just doing nothing but pushing through a brick wall. It's interesting how I've felt my body progress at certain times and this week I feel as though I've hit a new level of energy. I'm praising the Lord. Scotty has been so good at reminding me and making me pace myself, so I'm very grateful for that! Speaking of....can I just take a moment to say how very proud of my husband I am? He is truly wonderful and honestly, he has been nothing but the best for me!
That's all for now. I'm typing this on a touch screen, lying on the couch with Jazzy cozied up in one arm completely snoring away, which leaves me with my other arm shoved in the couch with my finger poking out and it is officially cramping...ha! There is no telling what this post will look like!
May your day be filled with all the blessings in the world and may you know the Lord knows exactly what is going on in your life and He is there to carry you!